Karma... to believe in or not? Does Karma deserve a capital letter as if it/he/she is a person? Is Karma some higher being or some sort of magic a higher being uses? Or is it a part of nature that just naturally does its natural thing hence the sayings "paybacks are a b*&^%" or "what goes around comes around?" I don't really know? I would love to believe that people really do get a taste of their own medicine at one point in time... I know I have (read: do not lie to parents, something bad ALWAYS happens). But then... when I have weeks like the previous two I have had, I seriously sit for hours debating with myself what I have done to deserve a severe dose of medicine I do not recall was appropriate. These last two weeks sucked and I think I was the most angry, stressed, depressed, non-confident, ugly, fat, insane (as Jake says) than I have been in a while. Most of these emotions were caused by the way others treated me and it really made me sit down and think about how I treat people... because, you know, Karma can be cruel.
After pouring my emotions to anyone who would listen (read: Jake and my mom), I was forced to think about these negative events in a new light. My mom shared with me that she believes that sometimes, we get the shitty end of the deal, only to be surpassed by something exciting, happy, memorable, and joyous- not everything bad happens because you deserve it.. but because it is meant to be overcome. Karma can be nice. Once again, my mom gave me a new breath of fresh air and some new thoughts to ponder and it did me some serious good. I woke up this morning with the positive attitude that this indeed was going to be my week, it was time for the sunshine to come back out and sure enough... it did.
Some very important phone calls were received today and I cannot begin to express my excitement for what the future may have and already has in store for me. I have found myself in a true win-win situation and am jumping up and down at the thought that whatever happens, I will be happy and will continue to feel very lucky... maybe even blessed? or maybe like Karma's new bff? I think I am starting to like her.. yeah, she's a her.
Now to the truth... I think there just might be a little truth to this Karma whether she is cruel or nice... either way... she sure does make a person reflect...
"Everything will work itself out and be okay in the end. If it is not okay, it is not the end."
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