Long Overdue

Goodbye civilization... HELLOOO RELAXATION!

I am just like everyone else when I say to myself "DAMN.. I need a vacation" (then the song from my 4th grade play that involves that concept begins to play in my head on repeat). You know what though, I really do. I do not think I have really taken a full day any time recently to relax and to nothing - just simply nothing.. where I can not only sit there and do nothing.. but sit there and do nothing while enjoying my surroundings without a care in the world. Of course, I have my days where I do get to have fun with friends (backyard campouts are personally my favorite), but on all of those fun days, I still have to do something dealing with school or work.. or have to deal with some stressful situation. Yes.. it is life.. but yes.. sometimes you need a break...

For the first time in 8 months, I will be leaving town.. to a place of peace and serenity, a place of pure nature and beauty.. and a place where I can put my big "hollywood" sunglasses on, kick up my feet and say "Now THIS is the life."

I am not looking forward to this trip for just a quick escape.. but a rejuvenation. I feel as if I have somewhat lost my ability to take things with a grain of salt. If you catch my drift. Everything and anything lately has either pissed me off, stressed me out, or made me cry... and sometimes even all three mixed together.. ok.. almost all the time. I cant help but get so frusterated over the smallest of things whether it be something someone said or did.. or just myself.. Many people often say to me.. "you are so young.. what is there to worry/stress about in your life at this time?" This seemingly kind brush off from these people tends to make me want to hysterically laugh and slap them viciously hard on the back saying "GOOD ONE!" I wont even begin to fill you all in on the stresses of a 20 year old.. going to school.. taking overload classes.. while working two jobs totaling over 60 hours a week... while coaching volleyball.. ANNND still managing to make the Dean's List. Hah.. take that! Enough said.

I think this simple escape has turned into a venture to find my old self. The self that did not really care what those people said or did.. that self that was happy just being me! For lack of better terms.. The self that did not GIVE A SHIT about anything unimportant. I need to have that self back, before I turn into some crazy maniac psychotic monster!! Wait, I think I already have.. :(

Not only will I be able to maybe find myself again, bur also rekindle a relationship. Not that it was lost or anything, but Jake and I have both been super busy with out own crazy lives and havent really had time to sit down and just be together.. our schedules are completely opposite and when one of us has time to get together.. the other cant reciprocate which is another HUGE frusterating thing that adds stress for no reason.. but for a good reason at the same time. We need more time together.. simple as that. When we do get some time together.. it seems to be the time where I tend to let loose all of my anger and frustrations.. which kills any chance for a good mood or happiness.. This nice vacation of ours however will give us this long awaited time to just be together and enjoy the time we do not normally have. Let me tell you, this time is much desired.. and to be honest I think it is much deserved as well.

Anyway.. point being.. I AM SOOOO FREAKING STOKED TO PEACE OUTTA HERE!! :)
Time honestly couldnt be ticking any slower as I sit here at work and count down the hours until paradise is in my horizon.

With that being said..

the bags are packed and I am ready to roll!!


P.S... perfect example.. I wrote this blog in Microsoft Office and then went to copy and paste.. only to find out you cant.. anothing thing for me to get obnoxiously pissed off about.. because I had to retype it all into this stupid box.